#i’m probably way overthinking this

[foolishfynnesse]

I just saw a post in which someone who is alloplatonic talked about how they can understand aplatonic experiences through their childhood experience of not feeling the need to have or make friends (this is the post btw). Thinking about it, I feel kind of like the reverse is sort of true for me?

My parents have told me that I was very social as a young child. I absolutely loved talking to anyone, including complete strangers. I loved making friends. Not that I don’t like making friends now, but I’m pretty much never the instigator nowadays. People always approach me, and I certainly don’t mind making friends. I’m actually pretty quick to call people my friends, since aren’t friends people you know and are friendly with and maybe hang out with every now and then? But there are only a few people I even bother to keep up with, and even then I’m not very good at keeping in touch with most of them. And sure, I love to hang out with my friends when given the chance, but I wonder if that’s because I like socializing with people around my age that I’m comfortable being around, or if it’s because of platonic attraction. I’ve read some posts about platonic pining, and I’m not sure if I really relate to those or not. Though I suppose I don’t think about my friends in that way. But when I imagine doing some of the things talked about in those posts with a friend, I feel that I wouldn’t mind it, and would likely even enjoy it. Though I don’t think I really crave it. And if a friend ever told me “I love you” (in a platonic sense, of course) I most certainly would respond with “Aw, thanks :D” but wouldn’t be able to say “I love you, too” and would feel awkward and bad because of that. But then I think of times when I’ve felt uncomfortable telling my (immediate) family I love them. I’ve grown used to telling them that through practice, and I’m pretty sure I love them (the fuck is love, anyway?). What I’m trying to say is, maybe I do love my friends, but just don’t feel comfortable voicing that sentiment.

Though I suppose, since I’m questioning about using the label gray-platonic and not just outright 100% a-platonic, the question isn’t whether or not I experience platonic attraction, but rather how frequently and/or intensely I experience it. And I think the answer is: not often, and not very. At least, I’m pretty sure. Perhaps I feel it more when I’m actually around my friends, but with the pandemic and with my friends having graduated from university, I’m not able to hang out with them a lot. And when I do, it’s not in-person. Though I notice that I don’t really mind much at all.

Hell, questioning whether I’m aplspec has been more difficult than figuring out if I’m acespec and arospec combined.

[overly-hubristic-mad-scientist]

I have a lot of questions about the implications of the muppets universe. Like are you born a muppet or are you sewn? If you are born must at least one of your parents also be a muppet or is it like some type of genetic mutation? There have been jokes about muppets/humans being into each other so I assume that muppets are considered human enough to like humans with no issues. Nobody really stares at the muppets which implies that they live in a world where muppets are common enough that they don’t phase those around them, but uncommon enough that the only muppets we see are those which are relevant to the story(you never see muppets as extras in the background or anything). If muppets are sewn can just anybody with enough skill make a muppet or must it be an actual process. There was a show with a human man who had a muppet brother so that implies that the parent either adopted a muppet son, actively made a decided to sew a muppet son, or just gave birth to a muppet. They have muppets that are meant to be some kind of anthropomorphic animal, but there are also just normal animals so where does that place them in the human muppet spectrum?

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

animal to human continuum??

This is really messing with my brain so I am now going to blab about it to y’all for peace of mind 🤡

Okay, so. The King of Beasts is a full-on lion, right??? Like Scar is very much depicted as a lion in all of his statues and portraits:

But then we have the Generous Fox (Honest John) and the Good-Natured Cat (Gideon), who are also said to be important figures in the popular children's story of Wish Upon a Star… and Honest John and Gideon are clearly depicted as an anthropomorphic fox and cat, respectively:

And then we have beastmen, who are mostly human but have animalistic traits, namely in the tails and/or ears and horns. We also see these animal traits arising in their behaviors and abilities (such as quick reflexes, enhanced strength and/or speed, sensitivity to smell, etc.):

The beastmen are said to have animal ancestors, which makes sense considering that prominent people like the King of Beasts and other animal figures appear in Twisted Wonderland history; these figures are depicted in artwork, architecture, etc.:

So are we… are we literally witnessing the “evolution” of actual animals to anthros to beastmen through those statues??? 😭 (Twisted Wonderland still of course has actual animals in modern day; beastmen must have diverged and formed a separate group.)

[bumbling-kiddo]

i made a lil agere trick or treat ask game bc i wanted to let people choose what kind of fun treat they get but idk if i should post it

[fingertipsmp3]

I am once again having a sexuality crisis (read: wondering if I’m a lesbian or just have been stuck in my hometown for too long yet again and therefore haven’t seen a man who doesn’t look vaguely like a fish in years)

[e77y]

The visceral and hungering loneliness is back. You know what that means! Bedtime

[feinv]

oh my godd you feed us so good every day please never stop 🫶🏼

BRO. if it was up to me i would literally post every ten minutes I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAYY but gotta humble myself not to annoy followers and mooties by flooding the feed😭

[fruitless-vain]

Me: I’m feeling a bit less paranoid, returning to a bit of normalcy. Everything will work out fine. Maybe I’ll leave some windows open a slight bit today and get the airflow going in here. I’m feeling pretty okay about it, let’s push our comfort a bit and try to get back to normal routines. So an extra lap around the pond, get more comfortable being outside for longer bursts

This one white mini van conveniently parked three spots away from where I Always Park Every Day that’s never been there before with darkened windows and two really sketchy dudes in the front seat watching me pull up and exit the truck. That same vehicle still being there 45 minutes later at the end of my walk watching me enter my car, one of them grabbing their phone and sending a text as I’m loading the dogs back in the car:

okay so I’m gonna be locking those windows and wanting to hide in the closet today

[shadelorde]

Hrnghrgh Vaatu and Unalaq are so interesting because like, the show seems dead-set on insisting that Vaatu has corrupted Unalaq with his Evil Spirit Powers and that Vaatu has stripped away his humanity and that Vaatu is the manipulator.

But. Like.

In practicality, what does Vaatu have to leverage against Unalaq? He’s imprisoned, his corruption abilities do not extend far at all and still only apply to spirits (and weaker ones at that-he could not corrupt the dragon bird spirit that took Korra to the portals, for example).

Meanwhile, Unalaq has his children, both Water Tribes, and Korra under his thumb. He is the one who holds power over the portals. Unalaq also has the ability to spiritbend-to corrupt light spirits and purify dark spirits-as well as human spirits that come into the Spirit World.

Vaatu has never shown any desire to be an Avatar Spirit-and why would he? He clearly still holds disdain towards humans, and his major desire is to escape the Tree of Time-he would not be eager to tether himself to a rather confined flesh vessel.

Vaatu’s character (what little there is) has completely changed from Beginnings to now as well, he has a far more desperate energy. Compare his fight with Wan to his fight with Korra; he’s putting in an effort with Wan for sure, but he clearly believes he has the upper hand, monologuing at him, using very showy patterns, we have a Big Clashing Beautiful fight sequence. With Korra, however, Vaatu hardly speaks at all, moves more quickly, with an air of desperation-his goal is to not get put back in the goddamn tree. And he still almost loses.

Unalaq, on the other hand, stays pretty consistent. He’s always manipulative, always power-hungry, even before (I assume?) he met Vaatu, he destroys an entire spirit-wild to kick his brother out of the Northern Water Tribe. (and I hardly doubt Vaatu would have wanted him to do something like that-he killed several people in beginnings partially because they burned down a forest (I have additional thoughts on that. later))

And then, and then there’s the fact that in season three, Zaheer said, “Vaatu and Unalaq merging to create an avatar was not a part of our plan.”

It was not part of their plan.

I think that Unalaq was actually the manipulator and the one with the upper position of power over Vaatu the whole time.

[starteas]

I feel kind of silly for worrying if Lumi won’t reach it’s next crowdfund goal despite how much people have shown that yes, they do want to see this and my anxiety is just mean to me in thinking that they won’t.

At the same time it’s still a very real worry to have, but it also lead me to severely doubt myself last time and I feel if starting to creep in all over again…

[willowfey]

last post i reblogged got me thinkin about how DRAMATIC the lives of my dolls used to be. my main dollhouse storyline was that the dollhouse was actually a resort hotel with a hot tub (bowl of warm water) and all sorts of other features, and there were two main families on vacation there, staying in rooms side by side, leading vastly different lives otherwise. except the parents of both families all knew each other as kids and were all secretly in love and have been thinking about each other for years, but they had a huge falling out and swore to never see each other again so when they find out they’re all staying there they try their best to avoid contact…. but while on vacation there’s a major natural disaster (usually all of them mixed into one), and two of the kids (one from each family, the youngest smallest weakest most pathetic children) go missing and the rest of them are barricaded in their room due to earthquakes and flooding and fires, and one parent from each family swaps and two of them go on a rescue mission while the others try to get out of the rooms, all while the kids are learning to get along despite their differences, and the parents realise that they got the fathers mixed up originally and now they don’t know whose real parents are whose, and also actually the resort ends up being under a terrorist/hostage situation, and the parents that are on the rescue mission keep almost dying and saving each other….. and then by the end of it the parents realise they’re all 4 in love and should just be a blended family and all the kids get to be siblings with 4 parents and live in a mansion together. but they all have ptsd from the events of their vacation and end up all sleeping in one room together forever.

and then i’d do it all over again

[ropes3amthoughts]

I am having the most normal day ever. Not normal as in normal for me, but normal as in for the average person. Ok so I was allowed to skip school today because school is short because of the election and there was no homework or anything, so I slept in, I ate breakfast, I took a shower, I cleaned my room, and did other productive stuff like that and like this all feels so normal? Like usually I don’t sleep well on school days and I don’t have time to shower in the mornings or eat breakfast and I’m usually very lazy and stuff but I’ve done all those things and this feels like an average guy day? Like the type of day that would happen in like a movie or like the type of day you’re supposed to have if that makes any sense? Idk I just feel so jarringly different today and it’s like wow I’m living like a normal guy should? This is so weird to me but it feels like a normal thing and idk how to explain it very well but like this is so strange I’m going to eat lunch and get ahead on my homework all productive-like and just wow I’m having an eerily normal person day???

[flygonscales]

I’ve just watched Hellraiser and it was so cool you know? I’ve already added Pinhead to my mental list of ‘people who are I think are cool and who I think I’d have a crush on if I wasn’t ace (it’s like I subconsciously identify them as people to have a crush on but my brain never gets any further except a vague sense of cool-ness but its different to the normal way of thinking a person is cool)’.

After this I’ve definitely identified what horror films I like - more sci fi or fantasy films with lots and lots of practical effects, fake blood and just lots of gunge. There’s a reason why I watched The Thing and it went straight up to one of my favourite films ever, and Hellraiser looks set to follow. I really want to watch The Fly, because if I’m not mistaken that’ll give me plenty of fun practical effects and alien slime.

[alkimea]

and if i start posting on substack about the books i read/movies i watch then what

[reidslovely]

haven’t written in so long. i miss it so so so bad but i can’t bring myself to write anything. i feel so scared and nervous every time i open a google doc that nothing i write is going to be good or original, that is what kills my motivation.

[eddieydewr]

The coming out video was a gem I’m actually sad it’s off of there hopefully he archived it.

Maybe this is his way to get off social media I wouldn’t blame him if he’s leaving social media after all of this. I’m just sad he’s deleted some nice videos even from his instagram :(((

it was 😔😔 i was proud of him for that video and i hope he isn’t feeling shame now. people keep talking about his sexuality, and jewish heritage & faith, in a bad light so i wouldn’t be surprised if he feels like he lost some agency in himself because people say shit online and everyone else takes it as gospel.